Hi everyone, I am 23 years old, and I am a sex addict. I have watched porn, had sex with anonomys partners, and I feel as though my addiction has also started to affect my sexual orientation. I have been with transexual ladies in my past, and now that it has effected my relationship with the women I love, I am questioning what all of it means. I don't believe that I am gay or even bi-sexual. I believe that in my past I have experiemented with people of the same sex, but because of my sexual addiction I have decided to act out with transexual people even though I am not attracted to men. The whole idea of me with a man doesn't sound appealing to me at all, but for some reason, when I am feeling alone or board and I go and I check out anything that I use to help me act out, I feel as if it stimulates me. After my experiences with transexual ladies, I would always realize that it just wasn't what I was wanting. It was a guy with boobs, a penis, in a dress that happened to look like a woman but wasn't.
I fell in love with my recent girl friend of 8 months who has broken up with me for very good reasons, but because she loves me and I love her, we are trying to figure out how to deal with our problems. The thought left to question though is, with all my lying to her about cheating, and my porn addiction which makes me feel like looking at transexuals, is it possible with time and therapy as well as group therapy that my girl friend and I are able to get passed this and still be happy? Also, is it possible for my girl friend to ever feel truly loved and be able to trust me again? Also, she wonders if I am gay or bi, but I don't feel that way. What is to be said about all of this? I need some feed back. Thank you.

"What? know ye not that he which is joined to an harlot is one body? for two, saith he, shall be one flesh....Flee fornication.  Every sin that a man doeth is without the body; but he that commiteth fornication sinneth against his own body."

When we do not worship the Lord by reading our Bible with consistent prayer, we become open to Satan's doorways of tactics against us.  We must be alert!

God has given us direct commands in his Word against Fornication and Adultrey, which includes pornography, lust, etc.

I believe that some of the strongest infestations of demonic bondages comes through sex (lust) outside of marriage.   Especially in pornography because the images stay in our minds and the devil knows he can keep throwing that up in our faces to keep us from growing with the Lord.   

If you recall, the times you were alone, you may remember the images that came through your mind that stimulated you to sin.  These images that flow through our mind are from demons.  It is up to us to either run to the Word in prayer or go against Jesus.   Continue on this site so you can get the encouragement that you need now.  A good Bible believing church is your (and your girlfriend) next step.  There, there Lord can direct a man within the church that you can talk to and confide in.  The Lord is a mighty deliverer!! Praise him for that!

You will see, that as soon as you begin an extensive study in the Word each day with prayer, the Holy Spirit will begin to speak to you and heal you.  It will become easier for you to fight off what the devil throws at you and then before you know it, you have no problem and you can be used to help others in this area.  There aint' nothing better or more exciting then working with the Lord. 

I hope this helps you.  God Bless.