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| Posted: Tue Nov 27th, 2007 02:49 pm |
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sam Member
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i have been doing pretty good lately. we have taken steps to limit exposure to stuff that i am tempted with. i am also happy to report that i have been able to avoid fantasy land during love making the last few times. i was tempted, but thank god, i was able to push it out of my mind. however, i am still struggling with the desire to have sex all the time. i am committed to spending more time in the word and praying than i had been and it has helped so much. while reading hosea, it dawned on me that i am just like gomer, the prostitute god told hosea to take as his wife. she would be with her husband and before you knew it, she strayed away... how many times i can think of when i was passionate about god and doing his will then next thing i knew, i strayed away from him. i prostituted myself with greed, lust, love of self and on and on. if only i would get to the point where i lived out what i believe all the time and walked in the realization that nothing, absolutely nothing compares to being in a right relationship with my father. bless you all. 
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| Posted: Thu Nov 29th, 2007 01:28 pm |
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sam Member
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extremely tempted right now. i don't really know why. just a typical day, none of the stuff that usually sets me off has happened. i'm determined not to do anything though. could it be that since i'm in my 30's my clock is ticking away and i just have a huge sexual appetite as a result? anyway, i don't care the reason... i've got to focus on my father who loves me.
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| Posted: Thu Nov 29th, 2007 04:45 pm |
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sam Member
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i'm better now. i don't know what gets into me. i hate this addiction. what makes it so much harder is that when i am going through a weak time, all i can think of is the need to act out, the end result - temporary flesh satisfaction... it's hard to see that what i am doing is more than a harmless desire and that my actions are not how god wants me to behave. i am so thankful that god is so patient with me. he loves me and treats me like i'm his only child.
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| Posted: Fri Nov 30th, 2007 07:58 pm |
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sam Member
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today has been a good day. i am learning to take it moment by moment though. there are times when i get confident that i will be strong and resist temptation then out of nowhere, an impure thought pops into my head. my biggest problem lately has been within my mind, not actually looking at porn. just a constant desire... i take comfort in what god says in his word, that he will NEVER leave me nor forsake me. i thank god for all he is doing in my life. maybe one day soon, i will be free.
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| Posted: Thu Oct 1st, 2009 05:14 pm |
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"Not Freed at Last" Why do i turn from God and chase this false idols? Love, Sex, Excitement Love- i cant seem to find affectionate from significant other. Sex-Once upon a time..... Excitement-2 doses rum per week Why not sttick with the Man who nver strays. Jesus I dont know I'm so attuned with sex oneness, everything else doesnt matter.What I need to do is have as Lord and Saviour. there goes 3 weeks of hard disclipline down the drain. what is so alluring with porn.... Tthe Sex acts its self are so fake. every sick and degrading act is based on commission am i so desperate for affection that i would take anything that resembles love (fake orgasms) 99% of the women are digitally altered... make up, light settings visual enhancements i would rather die lliving as an Ice Queen" of thee North than ever get fake (cold) sex so in a way im happy i havent committed fornication. am i verbally justifying sins of the past? -viewing the act is wrong in God's eye-Mental Fornication Matt 5:27 "you have heard that it ws said, Do not commit adultery, But I tell you that anyone that anyone who looks at a woman lustfully has commited adultery with her in his heart." a sin is a sin...its still wrong...
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| Posted: Thu Oct 1st, 2009 05:31 pm |
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passymbolic Guest
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sam, Doyou mind, if i might ask, Why do you watch porn when the sex is extremely hot with husband? Why seek others? Do you love him? Heck if i was getting laid wouldnt need to watch porn.
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| Posted: Sat Oct 3rd, 2009 01:59 am |
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sam Member
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yes, i do love him dearly. i have no real reason to have the compulsions that i do. honestly, there is no excuse for my behavior. thanks for asking tho. be blessed.
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